links
my gay tiktok video dedicated to alfie πΌ
alfie's rights as my first true love π
kevin's private tumblr (password: 251124) π
the tombstone πͺ¦
notices for alfie (post-processing)
21 june 2026 (iskandar puteri, malaysia)
dear alfie brancatella's inner child,
recently i watched toy story 5 and i also found a photo of you when from 11 years ago. i wanted to say that i really want to play together with you, as kids do. would you like to play together?
kevin's inner child
7 june 2026 (commonwealth, singapore)
dear alfie rene brancatella,
it seems that today marks the end of the chapter of my first love. recently, i published my june 2026 gay tiktok compilation that i dedicated to you, i have also finished processing my love and sexuality after integrating my experiences with you, and i have taken my first active step to find new boys who are soft and gentle. we shall see how that goes, though it currently looks like emptiness. i am now in the same spot that i was in 195 days ago when i first met you, albeit as a boy who now knows who he is when he loves and as a boy who is more capable of loving another boy securely and intentionally.Β
i don't really know where life will lead me, but it currently looks like we are being led apart. i love you, and i will honour the rights i have assigned to you for being my first love. whether i do hit it off with that boy i reached out to or someone else or if something else happens, i am ready for it. let's hope it's not too painful. i will always love you, alfie brancatella, my sweet boy.
kevin
28 may 2026 (commonwealth, singapore)
dear alfie rene brancatella,
as you are the boy that holds the title of my first true love, you are entitled to rights that respect your significance to me. you can find them listed at alfie.kevin03.com/rights.Β
kevin
14 may 2026 (marrakesh, morocco)
dear alfie rene brancatella,
it seems that i am a boy with a lot to say, even when what i have to say has nothing to do with you. i am not processing you anymore but i do kind of miss writing about my feelings and knowing that someone cares enough to read it or even just knowing you have access to it, so i decided to create a password-protected tumblr blog. this blog will be for me to fully be me, where i talk about whatever i'm thinking about (including sexual stuff and what not). it'll be my digital journal. i will admit that i am essentially using my love for you to get me to write for myself, however i eventually intend to not rely on the thought of you to do so. you do not have to read it if you do not want to. this is not a way for me to talk to you. this is also prevent me writing more notices here that are not vitally important. you can find my tumblr at kev-being-honest.tumblr.com (password: 251124). that is all i have to say. i stand by my 24 april 2026 notice.
kevin
12 may 2026 (marrakesh, morocco)
dear alfie rene brancatella,
i am sorry for invalidating your pain in the past, particularly when i was really angry at you. to be clear, i do still believe my anger was valid. i was really hurt by the way you treated me and i guess that made my expression overly harsh. but even then, i shouldn't have made you feel like you were not allowed to feel pain. i know you feel uncomfortable and i know you feel very alone. it's okay that it sucks. i love you, and i don't want you to hurt yourself.Β
kevin
ps. i also wanted to mention that i feel sad that i have to let go of the future i wanted with you, and that neither of us can outrun the love we both have for each other. i am trying my best to give you the space you need.
4 may 2026 (groningen, the netherlands)
dear alfie rene brancatella,
i have decided to modify the structure of this website to reflect the settled nature of my love for you and the strong and secure foundation of the love between us. this update was triggered because a sweet dutch boy in bad nieuweschans was kind to me. he acted as a catalyst for me to reopen my heart as a soft and gentle boy. a boy who has integrated the pain and hurt caused by your actions, a boy who continues to love you securely, and a boy who is now open to new love with new boys. i love you, alfie.
kevin
24 april 2026 (crema, italy)
dear alfie rene brancatella,
as i leave crema, cremona, italy for dublin, ireland, i think i have reached a stage where i no longer need to process you as actively anymore. i guess spending my days being a deep boy at the fontanile (especially the call me by your name one) really helped. this does not change the fact that i will always love you, but that this foundation of my heart has now mostly settled in a way that i find healthy and functional. this means that i believe this website is essentially complete. i am sufficiently confident that the content of this website accurately reflects my feelings for you and meets my obligation of integrity, enough that i can make voice recordings of my most heartfelt sections. from now on, you will likely hear very little from me unless you choose to reach out to me, or unless i have a major life update where i feel a need to let you know (such as if i find a new boy). i believe that you are a fundamentally good person, alfie, even though this does not excuse your current knobbery. i know you can do better. when i was 17 and in the closet, i didn't believe i could be happy or free to be myself. i didn't even think i would make it to 18. eventually though, i made it through. i left home, came out, and then i found you. there is a way out, alfie, a way back, but you must do the work for yourself. i promise to always love you, and i intend to honour my word. even if no one else ever finds your soul worth loving (which i highly doubt), i always will. i will always be there for you, so long as you are brave enough to reach out. you are safe with me, alfie. i trust that you can overcome your fears because i know you and i am you. my love for you is an integral part of my identity. i am not a perfect boy, but i am the boy who loves you. to be kevin, i must love alfie. this notice acts as an acknowledgement of this transition. i love you, alfie. goodbye.
kevin
(if you prefer hearing me read this aloud, click here)
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